disintegrate

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time to move on, and try my best.

ty corina, lisyn, eening <3

I hate myself for not being there, I hate myself for missing it, I hate myself in so many ways.

Most of all, I hate myself for losing ur trust and ur friendship and come to think of it, I think I really deserve it.

So why am i crying?

I'm sorry for before and I'm sorry and I can just spend the rest of the night saying I'm sorry but I guess it won't matter that much to you alr ):

(: I've got a PSC psychological interview first thing tmr morning and I'm feeling pretty nervous! :/

hahahaha, I understand if people try to judge you (in general) through interviews, but a whole 5 hours just to judge your personality and character? HAHA character don't fail me now :DDDDD

Ahhh I've been driving every morning so far with my dearest driving buddy DANIEL :D after which we will go for lunch tgt HAHA we've been spending a great deal of time tgt! (: Driving lessons are getting rly fun and I'm srsly getting the hang of the clutch-accelerateo coordination thing THANK GOD :D

HEHE :D i shall go prance around my room now wish me luck for tmr guys! :D and jiayou to mokzy who is suffering at outfield now! (: JIAYOU! :D and jiayou to regina who's busy with so many things + dance + so much more. Jiayou to tls who is busy fighting off stupid inconsiderate unscrupulous people! and to everyone one else hard at work and busy with their lives JIAYOU, you are not alone.

It's days like these you feel so loved! (:

I'm gonna continue this post tmr, hahahaha cus i gotta go bathe + slp alr :D

gist of today, caught 'dear john' with JCEY (yeapie couldn't join us today D:) at marina sq! :D super awesome movie though the plot was abit :X hahahahaha v lovely emotional plays on the audience's heartstrings = we all cried like mad HAHA. okay i cried the least lololol yr and nana were sobbing throughout the whole thing (: gr8 movie, you gotta catch it! :D

then we visited tz at his workplace, pariss! :D hahahahaha tz's uniform is rly cool and formal omg and he looked like a prince hahaha! didn't stay for v long cus his manager was staring at us (cus we went in on the pretext of looking at the food so as to decide if we wanted to eat there or not hehe) (: anyw i just got off the phone with tz not long ago we talked abt random stuff :DDD

OH! :D then jcey went to the ZOO :D HAHAHAHAHAHA random idea cus we wanted to relive our childhood days but it turned out to be okay only, it was fun but definitely not worth the 23 dollars?!

yayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy and i got random bouts of encouragement from all my friends today, rgd friday, and i rly feel so loved :DDDD right back at you and you and you and to everyone out there too :D

intensive driving lessons start tmr! :D gotta meet DANIEL, my awesm driving buddy, at yishun at 730am tmr so i rly ought to go get some shuteye, will update proper tmr! :DDDDDD

I feel so wonderful to be surrounded by lovely people 24/7 :D

If you don't feel loved, you srsly just gotta

OPEN YOUR EYES TO LOVE ((((:

HAHA ignore the lizzie mccguire MV (i love LM anyw), just listen to the song :D

Something came over me ytd while I was surfing FB (: It was just a random, random bolt of enlightenment which had hit me. I'm glad for it hahahaha, wherever it came from.

I signed up for relief teaching! :D HEE HEE. (: Hope MOE approves of it quickly so I can chiong down to Chongfu primary (where my mum is teaching, ohgod it'll be so amazing if I become colleagues with my mum!) Though I really haven't considered doing any thing other than law in my life, recent events have compelled me to think otherwise (:

I think its the kids and the :DDDD expressions they give me when I make something so alien UNDERSTANDABLE to them (: The beammmmmmms on their faces are simply priceless and they srsly just make my day. How typical, you might think! BUT SRSLY, you can't even come close to FATHOMING that rush of euphoria and triumph I feel when I make people understand stuff they previously didn't. :D ESP THE KIDS OMG THEY ARE SUCH ANGELS :D

I tutor many many kids hahaha ranging from K1 to Sec 4, and they are all going, JIAMIN JIEJIE :DDDDDD ahhhhhhh heavennnn. :D I guess I really do like kids alot haha, no matter how noisyyy and demanding they can be.

SOOOO instead of trying for some law internship which I think will be beneficial too la, I've decided to try teaching :DDDDDDDDD woooooo (: maybe i'll really like it! :D see how first.

Anyw, I met up with my class the other day for lunch + NTU talks :D hahaahahaha 6V, lovely bunch :DDD had a wonderful day :D saw many RVians + random friends at the NTU talks, (((((((: its a really great feeling seeing familiar faces wherever you go ((: somehow you know you're not alone in this world. (:

Ohhh and alot of my guy friends are having field camp nowwwwwww. :D JIAYOU OKAY dont get eaten up by wild boars WOOHOO be a chiongster! you guys can do it! (:

wheeee. my sis's common tests are this wk so im grounded. ): gotta teach her amath and physics, she's v weak in these two subjs JIAYOUUUU CLAY. As im i blogging she's having eng or ss (i dont know what time's what) SO YAYYYYY *sends hordes of goodluck over to CGS*

Proj CACTUS, my lovely SL proj is going well and agreements are being made etc etc so thank god for all that too :D

AND FRIDAYYY. as much as i hate to talk/think about it, friday's just lingering ard in my head and i srsly feel sooooo worried. ): Of course I'm hoping I will do wellllllll but I just don't know you know. ): Like before Olvls results I was pretty certain my results were gonna be okay but right now I'm just not too sure ): So i'm just gonna pray and hope for the best, GP GIMME A plssssssss. ):

will be praying for all the J2s out there also :D gdluck everyoneeee :DDD

and and and every thurs, I've been going out with JCEY :D HAHA its our RV clique outing, so lovelyyyy. :D we bought a bikini 2 wks ago and walked ard sentosa with it ahahahahaha omg that had gotta be the most daring thing ive done in a long time (: and and and just last wk, we cooked and exercise and cycled and im so looking forward to this wk's outing cus we're gonna be pamering ourselves with a home-made SPAAAA :D

I feel so blessed to be around all these lovely peopleeeeeeeeeee and I really hope everything goes well for everyoneee. (: